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[holly]

there's a dream in my brain that just won't go away !
it's been stuck there since it came a few nights ago. . .

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<sup>Holly stood up, smiling, as he linked their fingers together. She couldn't remember the last time she'd been serious about a guy...but it had probably been Simon, the one who lasted the longest. He had almost lasted four days...and then on the fourth the broke up with the poor guy in a text message. She hadn't talked to him since then...and she kind of felt bad about it...but not bad enough to say sorry, or even try to talk to him or anything. It was actually kind of sad that that relationship was her most serious, but it was...he had actually been her last relationship, per say, as well. She really hated being tied down...it always ended up the same way. She'd never once had a guy break up with her, because she always beat them to it. Always.

Feeling a gentle squeeze on her fingers she snapped out of her thoughts, and glanced at Will, smiling. Had she been better at understanding people, and reading them, she probably would have realized that there was something upsetting Will, but she wasn't...and even if she was she probably wouldn't have known what to do about it. On the off chance she did realize there was something upsetting someone she usually tried to ignore it...she hated trying to comfort people. She was no good at it, it made her feel useless. But she did notice that he hadn't even spoken for quite some time...that upset her. She found that people who didn't talk were usually mad at her.

"Hey...what's wrong?" She asked, her face looking anxious, but she didn't stop walking. She did, however, walk kind of slowly. "Anything you want to talk about? I'm a pretty good listener...okay, well, I can be. I don't talk all the time." She giggled a little bit, although she was still kind of anxious. Had she said something wrong? Or done something wrong? Oh, she hated when people didn't talk...silence was the worst. Well, usually...she didn't mind so much if someone was silent while she rambled...but if no one was talking, her included, it made her incredibly nervous.

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[william]

She stopped him, and he yanked himself back from the flashback, the rude vision of her lips tied to Devon's evaporating.. but it still hurt.. He blinked and looked down at her, his eyebrows raising as if he was surprised.. "W-.. oh.. well.. I was just thinking back to the reason I've been single for so long.." He blinked slowly and sighed.. "That wall right there.. changed it all.. My best friend stole my girl.. so I lost two important people that day.." He blinked a few more times before turning his eyes up towards her.. "I hate them.. both of them.. for screwing me up so badly.. I was.. horrible for at least a year.. I'm just now getting back to the normal me.."

What was he complaining for.. he was with her..

But for how long? Nothing lasted forever, or at least that's how it had been so far.. He looked her over.. Was she even going to keep her promise of spring break.. or.. the date.. or anything.. Did she even picture this as anything? Did she care.. God he was such a worry wart.. He smiled softly at her and shook his head.. "But I shouldn't worry when I have great people like you to hang out with.." What was this.. thing anyways.. I mean.. they'd not actually declared it anything but a minor friendship and two obvious crushes.. what the hell were they..

And why was he so worried about it?

One, because of what happened two years ago.. Two.. he didn't want to go through that again.. Though it may not involve his best friend, it would involve a girl he happened to like.. a lot.. and that wasn't something he wanted to lose. No, not again. It would crush him. Stopping, he leaned against the wall, and sighed. "Do you ever wonder.. why god does such cruel things to people.. is it to teach them something, or just to watch them suffer?" He pouted, and then looked up at her.. "The truth is.. you scare me.. but not in a way that I want to run.. or never talk to you again.. in a way that I don't want to let you leave.. for the fear that I'll never see you again.. how sad is that?" He gave a soft laugh and lifted himself from the wall, walking towards her for the short distance there was to walk..

"I don't think.. I've ever gotten this attached so quickly.. and honestly, I'm scared to death.. because.. I don't know what to do about it.. but I do know I'm not ready to let you go.. but that's not my choice.. I don't own you.. in fact, I just met you.. but I'm already falling... -" He stopped at his own words and looked up at her.. "I know.. I'm an idiot.. just tell me to shut up.."

He knew those words meant something.. and they were scary..

[holly]

there's a dream in my brain that just won't go away !
it's been stuck there since it came a few nights ago. . .

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<sup>Holly couldn't help but frown as he told his story..she didn't even talk, or try to interrupt him, or anything, like she usually did when people talked. She just felt horrible...she didn't want to hurt him like they had. But she also didn't really know what to say...she didn't even know what was going on with the two of them, really, it kind of confused her. They were just friends, weren't they? Well...they'd kissed...and were supposed to go on a date...and they obviously both liked each other as more than friends...but Holly wasn't sure suggesting being any thing more than friends sounded like a good idea. She really didn't want to hurt him...but she knew that she probably would. If she weren't so selfish she probably would have just told him that she changed her mind about liking him, or something...but she couldn't do that.

"No, you're not an idiot." She said, shaking her head sadly. She didn't know how to word what she knew she wanted to say...and so she just decided to stop thinking and let her mouth talk for itself, like she usually did. "I guess it's normal for me to have liked you so quickly...that's kind of how I am. I can see why you're scared of me though...you should be...I don't want to hurt you or anything, but I know it will probably end up like that. I'm weird, I have some kind of issues or something...I hate being tied down, or having a boyfriend, or anything like that, and the few times i have found a guy I thought I liked enough to actually have a relationship with I ended up hurting him."

She immediately thought about how stupid it was to be telling him this...but she couldn't stop talking. "I mean, I don't want to hurt you...I really like you, I do. I'm just not so sure what to do about it...I mean, I've liked guys before, but I can't remember if it felt like this." She shrugged a bit, then looked down at her feet, knowing she sounded like some kind of rambling idiot, but not really caring. "Okay, now it's my turn to shut up." She laughed a little bit, even though she didn't see much humor in the situation.

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[william]

Wait.. she was one of those girls who dated a guy, got bored, and then dumped them.. He couldn't help the anger that welled up inside him.. but it wasn't directed at her.. More at him than anything.. He was so stupid.. Why would he let himself fall for a girl.. and then.. still like her as much even after she told him her habit.. He stared at the ground as she did for a second, and then looked up at her.. "So.. what is this.. a fling?" He let his brow furrow at that..

He'd never had a "fling" before..

Unless you consider the time he got drunk after the incedent and made out with that girl.. Shit.. he couldn't even remember what really happened.. He knew he'd not had sex though.. The girl didn't even remember him.. otherwise he would have known her name.. Did this make him just as bad as holly.. only he had one night make out sessions, and then didn't even get her name?! He felt as if he wanted to rip his own face off..

"Because I'm not sure.. how to handle that.. but I'm not giving up on this.. no way.." He sighed softly and looked her over. "I feel way too strongly to just walk away, and I don't care what you said.. maybe.. maybe this is different.. all I can do is hope, right?" He blinked deep chocolate eyes at her for a second, and then offered a soft smile.. "Let's get you back to your dorm before it gets too dark.." Getting away from the wall, he headed towards the entrance to the girls dorms..

[holly]

there's a dream in my brain that just won't go away !
it's been stuck there since it came a few nights ago. . .

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<sup>Holly frowned...she didn't want it to be a fling. Sure, she'd had some "flings" before...but she didn't want this to be a fling...she didn't know what she wanted this to be...she knew that it was definitely different...the way she felt about him...she couldn't even describe it...but she also knew from experience that it was too early for her to really know if she really felt how she thought she felt about him...if that even made any sense. All she knew was that at the moment she didn't want it to be a fling...but what about the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that? She hoped she'd feel the same...but she was glad that he said he wasn't giving up. Maybe that was what she needed...a guy who didn't give up.

"I don't want this to be a fling..." She mumbled, following him over to the entrance to the girls dorms. This didn't feel like the best way to end things...not when everything else had been so great...it had been an amazing day...and now it was ending like this...the air around her just felt so bitter...but maybe it was just her. She felt furious at herself...she'd obviously not said the right things, not at all. But she'd never been too good at saying the right thing...so she wasn't that surprised. that's what you get for not thinking before you speak, she told herself, feeling quite annoyed...normally she didn't even care if she said something stupid without thinking. That itself was proof that this had to be different...

"I guess this is goodbye?" She asked, looking up at him. She felt like saying everything she said was a lie...but that would be a lie. Holly was a horrible liar...and she hated lying. She wanted to make him promise that they would see each other again soon...but she wasn't going to do that.

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[william]

He stopped infront of her and watched a few girls slip in before the curfew got the best of them. He'd not even thought about that.. "Goodbye? no.." He shook his head and gave her a soft smile.. "And I hope it's not anywhere near a fling.. I like you way too much to do that.." He looked at the doors to her dorm section, and then pouted softly.. Well he didn't want her to leave either.. He laughed.. "I am taking you on a date and on spring break vacation, and that's all there is to it.. I don't even care if your parents say no.. we can sneak you out.. and they can sue me later.."

He laughed softly at that and shook his head..

"But I'm definately going to see you again.. it's never goodbye.. it's a goodnight.." Letting her hand go, he looked down at his own hands as if they were a cursed object, and then felt that lump of nerves growing in his throat again.. God he was horrible at this nervous stuff.. Smiling softly, he looked up at her meekly, almost trying to hide, and then swallowed.. He had to man up and just go for it..

Touching the bottom of her chin, he pulled her forward for a kiss..

[holly]

there's a dream in my brain that just won't go away !
it's been stuck there since it came a few nights ago. . .

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<sup>Holly smiled a little bit, as she kissed him. That was more the kind of ending that fit the best day she'd had in...forever, pretty much. She couldn't remember the last time she had that much fun just doing...nothing. "I'm sure my parents will let me. They're pretty chill." She took a step away from him. It was true...her parents were definitely some cool people, even if by looking at them you wouldn't think it. Maybe they played favorites sometime, but Holly knew that they loved her just as much as they did her brother...even if they did let him get away with more. They would definitely be cool with it, though. They learned long ago that they couldn't actually stop her from doing things...because she could throw a fit worse than a four year olds...plus she could always sneak.

"Goodnight." She said, smiling a little bit, and kissing him on the cheek, before she turned around and walked into her dorm, not wanting to get in trouble in case it was past curfew...not that she usually followed curfew...but there was a first time for everything.

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[william]

Will smiled at her and watched her walk into the dorm, his smirk playing across his face, followed by him biting his lip.. The taste of her kiss was still giving him goosebumps and butterflies.. He smirked to himself, and turned away from the doors of the girls dorm, walking down the sidewalk slowly.. What a crazy day it had been.. he'd met this awesome girl.. and well.. here he was..

Stuffing his hands into his pockets, he picked up his pace a little, not even acknowledging the wall that brought back so many terrible memories. No, the only thing on his mind was Holly, and how crazy he was for her already.. He stopped where he was, and laughed.. and then took off running, jumping and waving his arms as he did.. Of course, he got a few awkward looks for his actions, but he didn't care.. He was happy.. and.. he was going to tell the world if he had to. Holly had changed his perspective on almost anything that had happened in the last few months, and he wasn't going to hide the fact. "WOHOO!" was all you could here as he got to his dorm..

Done?

[holly]

yep, I'd say it's done.